Lonely last semester

I have been feeling kind of lonely this semester. It's my last semester and you think that more people would want to spend time with me but they are all busy doing other things. I have my roommate Karmee but she hangs out with her other friends some times
And doesn't invite me. I find my self missing my old crush even though I know now that he never liked me but I miss him chatting with me at church and saying hi when I would see him on campus and around town. I really miss that. My guy friends seem to be to busy to hang out and the one guy that would hang out with me hangs out with my roommate now more than me! I know it's silly but I feel like she is taking my friend away :( then my other old crush from last semester is roommates with my guy friends Just ignores me. I guess I did make things awkward but all he wants to do is talk to my roommate! I feel so ignored and it makes me sad. I tried to get to know this other guy but he dropped the class and when I facebooked him about I got this slightly awkward response! What am I doing wrong? Why does no one other than my roommates make time for me? Maybe they figured i am leaving and they want to fase me out of their lives? I don't know

Reindeer vs stick

This is a video that I filmed at the this Christmas festival that I went to yesterday. It's pretty funny!

This has been the worst week of my college career!

well this week has been horrible socially as well as academically. I am a Communication major and so this week has been full of group projects and presentations. so a lot of my presentations are due today and tomorrow. In my media planning class group I felt like I couldn't do anything right. I kept telling them with the flowchart that our goals cannot be done in the media plan. I kept telling them that then brandon had to go in and change it completely. I guess I don't know that was a option. but since brandon did it our group leader actually listened and I did a prezi for our presentation and I worked like 5 hours on it and two of those hours were making the corrections they wanted. I lost a lot of sleep over this prezi and they didn't even use it and my group leader was throwing my under the bus during the question and I did the corrections and sent it to him the day before they practiced but he didn't get it till after they already practiced. I feel like I am just gonna fail out of this class. I bet my whole group will rate me low since i kept messing up. I hate this class. I am starting to really hate group assignments. Then for the millionth time this week I also got rejected by this guy that I really really liked. I found out on tuesday and I started crying then I had to go to my next class. but I did majority of my crying in a room where no one was. so that is good. people could just tell that I was crying and like 5 people asked me about it. it was nice that they cared but it really embarrassed me. I am totally skipping my AAF class because I am was getting some food because I was really hungry and I am not sure if we are doing much anyway. I realized it already started after it already started and it is only 1/2 hour so by the time I get there it will be majority over. Then in my events management class I did a presentation on the Sundance festival and didn't have 1/2 of the stuff I needed and I stayed up till 3 doing it. hopefully the presentation tomorrow goes better and so
does next week AHHHHH!!!

Boise!

Wow boise has been really great so far. we went to to agencies today and it felt really cool to be in those laid back agencies. the first one we went to was Drake Cooper. it was really cool to see some latest graduates getting some jobs right out of college. it was really great to see how they pitched their ideas to their clients and it is really great to see what professional read to stay in touch with the industry.

the second one that we went to was Mitchell Palmer and it was a smaller agency but it was really awesome to hear the one of the founders talk. he told us that this industry is not all about what you have done but what you have to offer. he also said that when they are looking for interns and employees they are looking for personality and a good attitudes and to see if they "fit" with their agency. I made some really awesome contacts and learned some things from Albert the social media guy and talked to one of the graphic designers.

this trip is making me look forward to me future career!

One thing

So life sucks right now. I just got rejected by a guy that I really liked and was a friend that I hung out with a lot. His roommate is dating my roommate so he asked him if he would date me and he said he would never date me. So he doesn't like me and he never will! He also said he is shallow and a horrible person but he is okay with that. I have lost all desire to try to date. It's to painful and I am sick of guy making me feel like this. Feel like since I am fat I am not worth dating. It sucks that one thing about me is such a turn off. Everyone tells me that personality is so important but it's not! it has a part of it but it's not as important as LOOKS! I hate it that people including guys tell me how great I am and how great my personality is but when it comes down to it it's not enough! I am not enough! And I hate that! How can love really exist in a world that is so vain, shallow, and peddy. I hate that he would rather date shallow woman that hurt guys because they can instead of date me a girl that would never hurt him! I feel like the only important thing to boys is if the girl is hot or not. Stupid stupid BOYS! I am so done trying. If he doesn't like me then the other guys that I was interested won't either. All the boys are the same anyway.

So I've been thinking

So I've been thinking about this guy that I am interested in. he's is really confusing. he has been really hurt in the past and now he hates all women and he doesn't even want to think about dating. We were talking a lot about it yesterday. I got his phone number and he didn't know my number so i was texting him but then he figured out it was me really early in the game but he played along really well. I wanted him to say it was me but he kept playing the game. It was so fun. So I think he knows that I like him now because my first two texts were hey good lookin' and you look good in flannel! I wanted him to be creeped out but he wasn't it was really funny. he was like "is flannel what I am wearing". then we started quoting Kid History and that was fun. I was trying to get him to say that he knew it's me and so I sent him "Do you know who I am?" and he sent back "Is the Pope Catholic" and I didn't respond for a while then I came up with "Is Mitt Romney Mormon" because he is a political Science major. and he responded "Can Pigs Fly"

then a little while later he called me and I missed his first call then I was like someone is calling me from a restricted number. and he turns his phone around and it is calling someone and I was like that is so funny we are calling/ being called by two separate people. Then my friend TJ and his roommate answered my phone and Chris was on the other end. and he was like TJ how did you get to the other line. how did these two phones get connected!

A little while before that he was asking if I had a oregon number or a idaho phone number and I was like I forgot. I've had this number for a long time. haha

He also looked me up so he knew it was me, he said the person is calling from a sprint phone and we were talking about what services we had because and they both have Iphones so they said that they are with AT&T and I was like I am with Sprint and they both look at each other. and a couple times TJ just started laughing. it was so much fun.

Also at one point after he knew it was me he said that it's some guy in Idaho Falls. he said it's a guy or a tricky girl and he was looking at me when he was saying and I was like why are you looking at me. it was so funny!

but anyway during this fun game he was talking about how he doesn't date girls in his ward, and how he just asked this girl out and he is trying to get out of it. and I was like then why did you ask her out and he said because she is awesome! he really likes sarcasm. and the funny thing about him is his name. I liked a guy with his name at the same time last year. I just realized that during lunch today haha actually that situation really sucked. so hopefully this C doesn't end up like the other C.

I really like him and I kind of forgot about the other guy that I used to like. so after our discussion yesterday I can't tell if he wants to challenge me or he wants me not to like him anymore. he was saying that it would have to be a really special girl to get him out on a date much less more than one. I am not sure if that was a subtle challenge. then he started asking about my roommate that has a boyfriend. I wish he wouldn't do that. he always tell me to say hi to my roommates. I think he likes them more than me. I was telling him about a potluck that we were going to do and he asked if my roommates are coming. I wish he would just see that I am right in front of him. he doesn't need to look further! I can show him that girls are not as horrible as he thinks. I wish i could tell him that I am not like those girls he has dated before. I am trying to decide if I should even try anymore. if he wants to play me, I don't want to play!
I've been hurt countless times by guys and I keep trying even though another rejection would probably place me in his mind set that all men are evil and so is dating. I do fall into that state of mind but I always recover. I think if I was a guy I would get tons of dates. I would have gotten married ages ago. so not fair!

Funny story!

So I was in Media Planning the other day and my full bottle of water fell off my desk. I didn't think anything of it even though there was some small damage on the bottom of the bottle. I placed it on the floor and looked back at my computer only to realize that my desk was wet. I wasn't alarmed at all I did have cold water in my water bottle so I figured it was from that. Then I decided to take a drink from my water bottle. So I grabbed it from the floor only to realize that the small damage was a lot more extensive then I first thought because there was water gushing from the bottom. This definitely alarmed me and luckily I was in the back of the class so no one was paying attention to me. I thought to myself that I need to do something about this so I don't leave a liter of water on the floor. so I put my hand underneath the water bottle to hold the gushing water and I started to drink as fast as I could. Every drink seemed to be forced and every time I drank and I lowered it from my mouth the gushing intensity would lower until the whole water bottle was empty.

Being filled with to much water I started to listen to Brother H's lecture again.
Crisis Averted!

I think about it now that I could have just left the class and dumped it out in the bathroom sink, but then I was trying not to bring attention to me because Brother H was lecturing.