So I've been thinking

So I've been thinking about this guy that I am interested in. he's is really confusing. he has been really hurt in the past and now he hates all women and he doesn't even want to think about dating. We were talking a lot about it yesterday. I got his phone number and he didn't know my number so i was texting him but then he figured out it was me really early in the game but he played along really well. I wanted him to say it was me but he kept playing the game. It was so fun. So I think he knows that I like him now because my first two texts were hey good lookin' and you look good in flannel! I wanted him to be creeped out but he wasn't it was really funny. he was like "is flannel what I am wearing". then we started quoting Kid History and that was fun. I was trying to get him to say that he knew it's me and so I sent him "Do you know who I am?" and he sent back "Is the Pope Catholic" and I didn't respond for a while then I came up with "Is Mitt Romney Mormon" because he is a political Science major. and he responded "Can Pigs Fly"

then a little while later he called me and I missed his first call then I was like someone is calling me from a restricted number. and he turns his phone around and it is calling someone and I was like that is so funny we are calling/ being called by two separate people. Then my friend TJ and his roommate answered my phone and Chris was on the other end. and he was like TJ how did you get to the other line. how did these two phones get connected!

A little while before that he was asking if I had a oregon number or a idaho phone number and I was like I forgot. I've had this number for a long time. haha

He also looked me up so he knew it was me, he said the person is calling from a sprint phone and we were talking about what services we had because and they both have Iphones so they said that they are with AT&T and I was like I am with Sprint and they both look at each other. and a couple times TJ just started laughing. it was so much fun.

Also at one point after he knew it was me he said that it's some guy in Idaho Falls. he said it's a guy or a tricky girl and he was looking at me when he was saying and I was like why are you looking at me. it was so funny!

but anyway during this fun game he was talking about how he doesn't date girls in his ward, and how he just asked this girl out and he is trying to get out of it. and I was like then why did you ask her out and he said because she is awesome! he really likes sarcasm. and the funny thing about him is his name. I liked a guy with his name at the same time last year. I just realized that during lunch today haha actually that situation really sucked. so hopefully this C doesn't end up like the other C.

I really like him and I kind of forgot about the other guy that I used to like. so after our discussion yesterday I can't tell if he wants to challenge me or he wants me not to like him anymore. he was saying that it would have to be a really special girl to get him out on a date much less more than one. I am not sure if that was a subtle challenge. then he started asking about my roommate that has a boyfriend. I wish he wouldn't do that. he always tell me to say hi to my roommates. I think he likes them more than me. I was telling him about a potluck that we were going to do and he asked if my roommates are coming. I wish he would just see that I am right in front of him. he doesn't need to look further! I can show him that girls are not as horrible as he thinks. I wish i could tell him that I am not like those girls he has dated before. I am trying to decide if I should even try anymore. if he wants to play me, I don't want to play!
I've been hurt countless times by guys and I keep trying even though another rejection would probably place me in his mind set that all men are evil and so is dating. I do fall into that state of mind but I always recover. I think if I was a guy I would get tons of dates. I would have gotten married ages ago. so not fair!

Funny story!

So I was in Media Planning the other day and my full bottle of water fell off my desk. I didn't think anything of it even though there was some small damage on the bottom of the bottle. I placed it on the floor and looked back at my computer only to realize that my desk was wet. I wasn't alarmed at all I did have cold water in my water bottle so I figured it was from that. Then I decided to take a drink from my water bottle. So I grabbed it from the floor only to realize that the small damage was a lot more extensive then I first thought because there was water gushing from the bottom. This definitely alarmed me and luckily I was in the back of the class so no one was paying attention to me. I thought to myself that I need to do something about this so I don't leave a liter of water on the floor. so I put my hand underneath the water bottle to hold the gushing water and I started to drink as fast as I could. Every drink seemed to be forced and every time I drank and I lowered it from my mouth the gushing intensity would lower until the whole water bottle was empty.

Being filled with to much water I started to listen to Brother H's lecture again.
Crisis Averted!

I think about it now that I could have just left the class and dumped it out in the bathroom sink, but then I was trying not to bring attention to me because Brother H was lecturing.

There always seems to be a song to know what I am thinking and feeling.

The other day I was thinking about a certain guy and I was wondering if his eyes are gray or blue or maybe a greyish blue. a few minutes later I found this song that was exactly what I was thinking about. not every lyric is about my situation but there were a few that seemed like the songwriter just took them out of my mind.
the song is called Grey or Blue by jaymay



I think my favorite lyrics in this song are
your eyes are either grey or blue I am not close enough to say.
and I can't keep staring at your mouth without wondering how it tastes.

well anyway just wanted to share that enjoy!

Inspired by a friend.

I have recently been inspired to blog by a friend of mine. He just made a blog that he looks back and sees what he has learned through his life. It's amazing what they say about how time heals all wounds. Sometimes it doesn't and you have to work through it but most of the time that is so true. I look back to 8th grade and the disappointment of this boy not liking me. I remember thinking it was the end of the world! That there was no way that I would ever like someone as much as I like him, but sure enough I got over it and I never even think about him now. I have gone through that cycle many times during the last few years, and even in the middle of despair you always come out of it eventually. Sometimes it takes longer than other times, but it always gets healed. life is full of disappointment but I think remembering that there are a lot of people that have way worse lives than mine. I might not be able to get a date or have the guy I really like to feel the same way about me but I have all my limbs,and I am able to get a college education and all my family members are still on this earth. when I think about all the blessing God has given me I am realize that I am truly blessed.